Fibro Hell
Posts Series
Light Dark Auto

Starting 2022 worst than I ended 2021

09-01-2022
2 min read
living with chronic pain
Daily Hell
Featured Image

Two days after Christmas, I wrote about how painful and tiring the holiday was for me. If you read it, you know that I didn’t have much sleep on top of what I just mentioned. I can’t say it wasn’t expected because it was.

Although a quiet one, the New Year celebration was also expected to be painful and tiring. It was. No surprise here.

After these holidays, I thought I wouldn’t get worse than I already was - a few days to recover, and that would be it. Wrong! So, but so wrong!

Since the third day of the year, I have had my worst experience with fibromyalgia so far. The pain was so unbearable that I spent every day and night with hot water bottles on my back and taking boiling showers. My back was so red for having so much heat on it that it looked like a lobster.

Even so, I could barely walk on most days.

The brain fog was so thick that I had massive difficulty thinking about even the most minor, simplest things.

I rarely cooked during these days. How could I?! Even getting out of bed caused me crazy high levels of pain and required an immense amount of energy I didn’t have to begin with.

I’m always trying to keep a positive attitude and mindset despite the difficulties, but these days truly tested my determination. At one time, I even doubted if it was worth it to keep fighting against it and find a treatment - that might not even exist - for my chronic pain.

I felt utterly lost and desperate, like I hadn’t until then. “Will it always be like this” - I thought to myself a lot of times.

Fortunately, the worst is now over. I can even sit for a bit on the couch. The brain, however, is still in a mushy state but improving.

I’ll have my second transcranial magnetic stimulation appointment on Monday, and I’m super excited about it! The first one was a positive and promising experience, so I expect this one to be like that too.

photo from Unsplash

#living with chronic pain #sleep #fatigue #exhaustion
Avatar
Bruno Suffering from fibromyalgia since July 2020
Previous Second transcranial magnetic stimulation appointment
Next Looking back to 2021

Series of Posts

Third anniversary of my living hell
Animal companionship in the context of chronic pain - my personal experience
Driven to desperation
I feel defeated
The holidays
How a cat made me feel excited again
I'm terrified about my future
Vacations and the toll on the body
Types of pain
Cannabis and pain
Covid, Fibromyalgia, and an increase in fatigue
A walk in the park
Fifth appointment - quick notes
Fourth appointment
Finding purpose
I had a chronic pain appointment that made me feel even more pain
Messed up sleep continues
Medical board to me: fuck you very much
High level, non-stopping
How it felt after the third appointment
Tracking the therapy progress
Third appointment done
Better on the surface
Multiple regions of my body with maximum pain intensity at the same time
Farto desta merda
To coma or not to coma
Things have gone downhill again
The pain relief didn't last long
Still feeling the treatment effects
Second transcranial magnetic stimulation appointment
Starting 2022 worst than I ended 2021
Looking back to 2021
No pain, no what!?
The Hellidays were like a beaten to my body
My arms hurt as much as my back
Maybe it's all bad luck
The third day after the first therapy session
I had my first transcranial neurostimulation appointment
Another very, very bad day
Things I do to "distract" myself from the pain
Transcranial magnetic stimulation medical appointment scheduled
How I keep an increase of pain at bay on family days
A Christmas pain song
O Christmas tree, O Christmas tree, how painful are your cold days
Another sleepless night
Round and round it goes
Things you should not say to someone with chronic pain
Worst pain level so far
Presented myself before a medical board and left the facilities feeling like shit
Building a good support network is essential
My experience with Social Security's medical boards
How I started cooking after fibromyalgia
I wake up feeling like I ran a marathon
A week of waking up around 8h like a fucking clock
WhY aRe YoU iN pAiN iF yOuR eXaMs ShOw NoThInG wRoNg?
Another sleepless night
I hate cold weather
HaVe YoU tRiEd (insert random stuff)?
Sleep and fibromyalgia

See Also

The Hellidays were like a beaten to my body
My arms hurt as much as my back
Another very, very bad day
I wake up feeling like I ran a marathon
Another sleepless night
A week of waking up around 8h like a fucking clock

License: CC-BY-SA-4.0 · Author: Bruno · Logo
I'm on the Fediverse · Powered by the Eureka theme for Hugo